Only one good thing happened to me this year, and it was on fools day so I feel a fool just thinking about it

Hi again

Hi, Its me again. Forgot to mention some things in my other post. Wish I had a gun. Nothing worked this year. I'm still fuckin at home and still alone and lonely. This is the worst year yet for me. Its funny when you try a devout goth in a church. This is fuckd. I wanna get out of here. Too much fakeness. This place is supposed to be spiritual but I only feel sluttier by the second. I wish there was someone I could text to feel a lot better. I want cake and chocolate. My fingers hurt from pepper, good earplugs are home. Someone rescue me!!

Shitty 2011

This year sucked and I just cant wait for it to be over.
Stuck in a church, because my mum thinks its appropriate to be in church every 31st but all I wanna do is cuddle in bed and obsess over the new cell I just got. I dont wanna regret it cus I feel like I let my sis waste her money on it. But it was pretty cute and right now the only thing I want from God is for the freaking phone to work properly. It keeps going off. God pls, this is me officially asking for one final 2011 gift. I didn't get anything cool this year and I pray I dont regret this new phone. And my email is empty as usual, my life is boring, and I'm pissed at life. My sis is sad, I dont wanna be here.. Goodbye 2011.