That feeling of emptiness, when you feel like nothing is going right. Like all your efforts are wasted. Like you're just a waste yourself and all your dreams are shattered before your very eyes. Well, thats how i feel now.
Am sitting here, shivering but too lazy to put off the fan. Hungry, but too lazy to eat. I want the world to go on without me. I feel invisible already. I feel like nobody sees me. I feel like my life is a lie. I feel my life is an unpleasant movie, am patiently awaiting the last scenes, am patiently awaiting a voice that'll scream 'CUT!' and end it all. Well, i might just continue with the lie, the perfect, happy girl on the outside. The girl that always has a smile for everyone. Its best that way, i'll just keep it bottled in. Well corked and kept far away where nobody can reach. I guess i'll just continue with this fantasy. Who knows how the real world is? Now am praying there's never a 'CUT!'. Now am praying noone finds out what i really feel. Now am praying the world stops for me to have this moment. Now am going to dress in my best and accessorize with my biggest smile. Because now i realize, what would be left of me? If the whole world knows whats wrong? I'll lose my privacy. Thats what am going to hold on to. My problems are not bigger than me. We all have our problems, as unpleasant as we think it is, it is what makes us unique, it is what makes us who we are. Thats what i think. Thats how i feel.
x.o.x.o.
There's enough love in the world.
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