Hi again

Hi, Its me again. Forgot to mention some things in my other post. Wish I had a gun. Nothing worked this year. I'm still fuckin at home and still alone and lonely. This is the worst year yet for me. Its funny when you try a devout goth in a church. This is fuckd. I wanna get out of here. Too much fakeness. This place is supposed to be spiritual but I only feel sluttier by the second. I wish there was someone I could text to feel a lot better. I want cake and chocolate. My fingers hurt from pepper, good earplugs are home. Someone rescue me!!